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Raw from the Road, April 16, 2018 In the Still of the Knight I’m kind of honored to be a dragon lady. The dragon is a very powerful, mythical animal. Yoko Ono You know the saying “she’s like a bull in a china shop?” Well, picture a bull in a…
Imperfection, Raw From The Road, February 1, 2018 Imperfection Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. It is better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. -Marilyn Monroe As I started to look into this mirror, cracked and imperfect, I started letting go of my need for perfection… from myself…
Raw from the Road, June 21, 2016 Waste Removal Scholar Tokusan, who was full full of knowledge and opinions about the dharma, came to Ryutan and asked about Zen. At one point Ryutan re-filled his guest’s teacup, but did not stop pouring when the cup was full. Tea spilled…
Raw From The Road, May 17, 2016 I Quit My Day Job After all these years, I am still involved in the process of self-discovery. It’s better to explore life and make mistakes than to play it safe. Mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full…
On Mattering I had a huge revelation tonight. After attending a fantastic conference with Brendon Burchard (High Performance Academy) and learning about important questions to ask myself like “do I matter?”, I wondered if I really did matter? This thought provoking notion really got to me. For the longest…
The longer I live the more I experience how connected we all are energetically. Lately, I’ve been concentrating on focusing on one thing at a time since I’ve come to the conclusion that doing a lot of things at the same time doesn’t get me very far. The more I…
I don’t know if it’s because we are approaching the month of love, but I’ve been wondering about the nuances of how we tell each other we love each other. Did we take the “I” out of “I love you” when texting came into view or was it the fast…
What’s the attraction to trees? They lose their leaves, They grow buds, they lose a limb, they withstand storms, they are strong and proud and there is a constancy about them. They are everywhere, watching, enduring, reaching out to the sun, being cleansed by the rain…ever growing. …
Wow, it’s been 4 months since I’ve blogged or journaled. Too many people are telling me about their journaling and I take that as a sign to get back on track and do it myself. (By the way, why doesn’t my computer register the words journaling and journaled??) I really like…
“Always dream and shoot higher than you know you can do. Don’t bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself.” ~William Faulkner I just got back from a hot yoga class. I have not done yoga steadily since we moved in…
Ever think about what exactly a starving artist is? I have and recently I thought a little deeper about it in regard to my own life as an artist. Usually when we hear that someone is a starving artist we think that they are poor, “starving” and scrounging around all…
Yep, I just deleted my somewhat lengthy post on accountability. I opened it up to edit it, so that I could add a very crucial part that I left out. I guess that this post will make sense to whomever read the last post…. so….. Between the time Luna…
Thanksgiving comes at a perfect time for me this year. Though there have been challenges and losses, which are part of life too, there have been many amazing miracles that I have experienced. So much growth, connection and love and for that, I am eternally grateful. It’s so easy to…
Sometimes the mirror isn’t cracked…. And sometimes it is. For me, when the mirror is cracked, or when I am taking a good long look at myself and I see flaws or where I need to grow, it is the very thing that teaches me how to do so. When…
Well… we did it. We finally moved to the country. This New York girl is now living amongst vineyards and horse ranches. I walk around the corner to get my mail. I wake up and hear roosters and horses. I smell hot pine in the heat of the summer and…
As I continue to deconstruct… I was recently in New York visiting my family. Unfortunately, my father had fallen and broken his pelvis and I went there to see him and help out. Going back always brings up triggers and memories and habitual slush, but this time was different. I’m…
I recently returned from a visit to New York where I spent time with my family. I brought my camera in case I had the inspiration to work on Deconstruction. I packed my long white dress, and lightweight tripod so I could fit everything into a carry on bag… a…
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Deconstruction, Self-portrait in White, Steele Bridge c 2013 Yesterday I had an out of body experience. It was amazing, really. I must admit, I have a cloud of self-consciousness floating about as I write this, but I have committed to letting myself be seen so here it is. First, a…
Untitled, Deconstruction, Self-portrait in White Series I recently went to see Peter Pan, the musical at the Pantages Theater. I had no idea what to expect, it was date night, we just had a delicious dinner, I had a little wine and I was prepared to sit back and…
Deconstruction, Self-portrait in White Cathedral Park, Portland, OR The concept of killing my “self” has crossed my mind. There have been times when I have been so confused and so down that if a meteor came out of the sky and hit me on the head and took me to…
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After a couple anger alignment sessions (good talks with good friends) I feel more at peace today. Maybe that’s why I’m wearing white? I really like the concept of the self-portrait and after watching “The Woodman’s” I am even more inspired to work on a self-portrait series, maybe a few….
Getting in touch with anger is fascinating to me. I never know I’m really angry until I feel it in an exaggerated way. I haven’t been angry in a long time, but I’m angry now at the behavior of someone I know. I know this will pass and I will…
The sky was so beautiful. High strewn clouds against a very blue back drop. It reminded me of the contrast needed to understand ourselves and others.
So much is unfolding… Now is a good time for silence. As David Ji says, “Fill what is empty, empty what is full.”
View from my meditation spot this morning…I want so much to quiet my mind.